About me and my Work


~ May all Beings be Blessed and Blossom ~ May all who find this website find Peace in this moment ~ May all Breaths be free ~ May I be a clear, lovingkind instrument of peace, vitality, Grace, and the pulse of Life ~ May all Beings be Happy, Healthy and Free ~ May the assistance I offer and those who benefit from such assistance in healthful resonance find each other ~ This or better for the Highest Good of All ~

May the Magnificent Beauty and Gifts of Life be Revealed to All

~ In Love with The Great Mystery ~

Om Loka Samasta Sukhino Bhavantu


“The world is full of magic things, patiently waiting for our senses to grow sharper.”

W. B. Yeats

 

MY FRAMEWORK

I have a collection of inherent gifts, mystic training, science study, life experience, and soul callings that aid in healing transformations, insight, and the expansion of consciousness and experience. It appears to be working for me. It appears to help others I’ve shared it with. It appears to be helping the Planet. My work, even if in some pebble-in-a-pond way, can assist in the relief of suffering. This is very important to me. So I offer what I can.

My primary abilities are in person, with the body and a person’s whole system, to feel and move energies, especially with singing bowls, vocal toning, intuitive singing, gongs, crystals, soft touch and mudras. Distance energy work can be effective as well! I also focus a great deal on introspection, symbolism, shadow work, consciousness, and expanding experience beyond perceptions of 3D incarnation.

The sounds, card readings, inquiries, feelings in the body, are all techniques to bypass conditioning and mental processes that limit our experience or block information. They open up pathways and receptivity. This is in part why each person's experience is different. It's based on where you're at and where you're willing to go, where you need to go.

Thinning the Veil is all about "the inside passages." The idea is to move into a state where perceptions bend, shift. Where traumas and gifts are buried. Beliefs are challenged. (Belief systems need regular cleaning and updating!) Intuition is nurtured. Messages received. Prayers sent. Self awareness is broadened. Self feeling deepened. Self love cultivated. Blind spots revealed. We develop connections with the more than human beings all around us, both in the 3 dimensional world and what might be called the spirit worlds or other dimensions. I am particularly fond of the Fae and Devas! It's quite a gift when we connect with our greater being that we may have never known existed, or had only glimpses.

Of course, in the case of severe trauma, some information is blocked for a good reason and it's not always wise to remember it. Certainly not if you're not ready and in the care of a proper therapist. So while I'll dive deep with you in most ways, I am very slow and cautious when I detect trauma triggers. If you're like I was, and many people I know, you may not even realize you have such traumas....

I do not have an agenda or prescription for you. I follow your lead and the guidance I receive. I have safeguards I invoke to protect you from my belief systems and needs. I don't project onto you. This is part of why I don't advertise being certified in particular techniques and lineages. It's kind of like, if you have a hammer, everything is a nail. I don't need you to have a particular condition that I can officially "treat." My practice is fluid and accesses what I need as I need it. If I can't help you with something, I'll say so. If I'm not sure, I'll say so and ask if you want to experiment. I don't need to convince or blame clients in order to protect my status. I can work in the gaps left by defined methodologies. It's an emergent practice where the unexpected has room to appear.

I do not identify as a healer, nor do I make big promises of healing you. But everything I do is in the service of healing and evolution. Neither am I a coach; this isn’t a hierarchical me-fixing-you to a determined outcome situation. I am a process person. An investigator and explorer. An intuitive Soul Diver. I call myself a Transformation Doula. Doula more or less means “woman who sits with you.” Like a birth doula, or a death doula. Why not a Transformation Doula? So I’m coining and claiming that one! Ha!

I mix magic and critical thinking. Verbal and nonverbal. Mostly I deal with “indirect methods” and non-physical realms. As in, I am not going to tell you which herbal medicine will heal your illness. I am not going to get you to start exercising or build a six figure income. I will ask you your intentions and offer energies, prayers and suggestions, but it’s up to you and your Soul what happens. A friend recently told me I gave him such big energy in a goodbye hug and telling him to “stay healthy” that he quit smoking. I did not set out to do that, but that is what he did with it. I played bowls for a woman to calm her down after a painful event, and a week later she told me it changed her whole energy and now has what she needs and it’s held for a couple of months now so far. Sometimes the work reveals trauma the client had no idea she had and can then find specific assistance for that. When I worked for a woman to help her with her land care, I found a neglected labyrinth and instantly knew that was key to supporting her, her land, her business. I focused on that and lots of things started to open up. She felt *so* much better when I completed my work. As I cleared the path of the labyrinth, my own path opened more. There is a lot to be said about clearing energies and pathways both inner and outer. Between the labyrinth and an intentional creativity rewiring course I took, this very webpage sprouted. Who knows what you will do for and with yourself as you uncover what is hidden, free your frustrations, tap your energy, follow your truth? Let’s find out!

I stay humble, curious, compassionate, neutral and resourceful. There will be no shaming or blaming or demanding. Prodding questions and suggestions, yes, lots of those. Looking for the *edges* of awareness and triggers. I don’t feed drama, but ask what is under the drama, which is a trigger of a wound needing healing. So sometimes I may have to gingerly cut your story short so we don’t get lost in it nor lost in thoughts and chatting. We need to be present in the sense of our focused awareness of what is in and around us, observant and receptive and open. A lot of talking obscures that kind of presence. It also easily falls into thought-form loops and “black holes” of false logic induced helplessness. Talking takes us out of our body, out of our energy pathways, cutting us off from all that wisdom, information and resources. So a balance is needed for multiple avenues of communication and interaction and stillness.

There will be no blowing you out in your trauma vortex. I learned from my Somatic Experiencing Practitioner how important it is to maintain presence with the prefrontal cortex (calm rational thinking mind) to help rewire rather than replay. I learned elsewhere that when we are in active trauma response, the Broca’s area of the brain shuts down. Our ability to speak is connected to that area. So it becomes actually physically difficult or impossible to speak when in trauma or reactivation of trauma. It is not your fault. This compounds the trauma further. (It leads to people not believing you, or making it seem like therapy is useless and you’ll always be broken.) Feel it to heal it yes, but only a little, not to the point of overwhelm or you’ll lose the navigation and the exit. The goal is to not re-traumatize you.

I do not require you to believe what I believe. I respect and honor your own wisdom and beliefs. I encourage you to develop and follow your own guidance. That is usually more fruitful than buying someone else’s perspective. I will however challenge your beliefs to help you clear confusion and stagnation or open to new ideas, expand your horizons. I don’t particularly subscribe to any lineage myself, but experiment with tools and insights I encounter. Rather, I am trying to bring in something new to get us unstuck. In other words, this is a dogma-free zone. I will do my best to be transparent about my beliefs and perspectives and how they affect my work, and if you don’t resonate with them, it may be difficult to work together; the work may not be for you at this time. But usually I can adapt and work with our differences and it will go smoothly. It’s essential that I meet you where you are.

I am here to help you with what I do for myself: see yourself more clearly and address unconscious influences; deprogramming, denial relief, and bursting unhealthy bubbles. Integrating the superconscious and the quantum nature of reality. Working with symbolism and metaphors and reflections and messages from beyond the “veil.” Disarming the cycles of trauma-drama-karma. Ancestral healing. Following intuition and guidance. Engaging Creative Imagination. Being true to our multidimensional selves and inviolable self and essential unity. Melting into loving relationships with Life and Living, Death and Dying. Being Present in the Now and the Process. Being a Sacred Witness. Sailing into the Great Mystery ~~~

 

IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER: READ THIS

All of my offerings are my personally developed processes for your use at your own discretion, curiosity, education, risk and self-care; they are NOT professional medical or psychological diagnosis, advice or treatment and MUST NOT be relied upon as such. Neither am I a social worker nor legal advisor. Please seek professional services as you see fit. This will be part of our agreement to work together.

If you are in crisis, please contact a crisis professional. All I can do in that situation is listen and pray; I am neither qualified nor resourced to save your life or property.

If you are suicidal out of despair (as opposed to death with dignity), please contact a suicide prevention professional. For what it’s worth, this is my stand on suicide.

 

 

Some of the transformations I have been through since I turned 44 thirteen years ago ~

  • 90% bed-bound for 3+ years with mystery illnesses to almost instant recovery. (2008)
  • Leaving a 26 year toxic, abusive marriage and lifestyle, and the post-divorce co-parenting challenges.
  • Going from agnostic and mechanistic to spiritual, fractal-holographic-metaphoric and quantum world views.
  • Extraction from scientism and other forms of conditioning and programming.  Currently working on clearing colonial and apocalyptic mind sets.
  • Extraction from Western medicine and the typical American diet to organic whole foods and plant based medicines.
  • Accepting my gifts as an energy channel and intuitive soul diver.
  • Accepting my gifts working with sound for portals, journeys, shamanic states, communication, and transformation.
  • Embracing and cultivating my multidimensional nature, especially the Fae, Dragon and Star loves.
  • Several pilgrimages including a recent 2 year pilgrimage through 3 continents.
  • Great reduction in my nervous system flight-fight-freeze and hypervigilance issues. My RAS is now functioning to filter sounds after decades of dysfunction.
  • Ending a lifelong pattern of suicidal ideation and mild attempts.
  • From lost in trauma drama to mild, infrequent triggers I can readily reign in.
  • Ancestral healing of land, family lineages, and genocide.
  • Holding a funeral and a memorial for my mother, with a few days to prepare while I drove 800 miles. The cremation was about as real-transcendental-breaking open-intense as it gets.
  • I held a funeral for myself to mark the end of repeating patterns and start over without changing bodies: it resulted in a magical move to Hawai’i Island and a series of intense trainings and healings for me and my daughter.
  • Healing early childhood long term sexual abuse.
  • Healing dissociative personality syndrome from developmental trauma.
  • Minimizing new difficult karma with people and clearing the old.
  • Sweat ceremonies of love teachings and letting go.
  • 10 years with a variety of Sacred Plant Medicines.
  • Recovering from practically non-existent self-esteem.
  • Recovering from my professional jealousy and judgmentalism.
  • Recovery from frequent predation; I’m no longer an easy target.
  • I am no longer needy for company, approval, recognition, validation, assistance, or appreciation from others. But reciprocity, alignment, authentic kind expression, humbleness, transformational self-reflection, follow through, and boundaries do matter in my choices in who I relate with.
  • Mother of a highly gifted, highly sensitive, highly self-aware artist-daughter-healer. Hardest. Job. Ever. She made it to art school, intact and activated. To her credit, despite crazy parents. She knows her way well, always has. Whew.